It always feels like we have so much more time than we really do. Anthony, when you were little, just starting out in Preschool, thinking of you entering High School felt so far off. And because it's so far off, there aren't any emotions tied to it. You know that eventually the day will come, but it's so far in the future, you don't even give it a second thought. Until one day, somehow, you blink and the day is here, and you're left wondering where in the hell all that time you thought you had went.
That is how I'm feeling. I'm feeling like I wish I could go back to the days where you were just a little preschooler, so proud of working on your letters and numbers. I'm feeling like I don't know how we've already reached 14, and you'll be entering High School in the fall. I'm feeling like I know better now, I know how quickly time passes, and I am all kinds of choked up knowing that in 4 years you will be graduating.
I know this, but I still don't want to believe it. 4 years doesn't seem as far off as it used to.
Anthony, we are continuously proud of the hard work you put into school. I know not all things school wise come easy to you, and you are one that has to put in the constant hard work to get those A's and B's (and you got them! All throughout Middle School!). I know how frustrating it is to you that you have to work so hard, while others around you don't seem to. I can promise you that it's not always such a good thing to have things come easy. That doesn't teach you work ethic. That doesn't teach you perseverance. That doesn't teach you how to be brave and find your voice and know when it's time to ask for help. People who have never struggled or failed at anything don't truly know just how sweet and victorious it feels to succeed. But you know that feeling. I know you know that feeling. Otherwise you wouldn't have text me in the middle of the school day to tell me you succeeded in getting your math grade up to a B after such a long and hard last quarter. I know you felt proud of yourself. I know you felt that all your hard work payed off. The fact that you couldn't wait till you got home to tell me made my heart swell. I'm always in your corner. I'm always rooting for you.
You will be a better man in the future for having to work hard now. I know it. And we are so damned proud of you for your perseverance.
What a fine young man you are growing into.
Happy 14th Birthday, Anthony Carl! Upwards and onwards.
With love, Mama Hauck
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