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Friday, September 25, 2015

Belly Tickling, Soul Swelling, Heart Thudding Love

Timothy,

My dear boy....you make my belly tickle, my soul swell, and my heart thud. 

The sound of your giggle awakens the butterflies in my belly and I can't help but feel a smile peel across my face at your delightment, and a hearty laugh of my own escape my lips.

As you lay sleeping, snuggled on my lap, the smell of your hair makes my soul swell. We made you, and how wonderfully made you are. You are a product of this Mama's soul's desire.

The sight of your baby blues makes my heart hammer against my rib cage like a jackhammer out of control. At times I fear my heart is going to beat right out of my chest and explode! 

 
 

I have never, in all my life, been so choked with emotion; I don't know whether the lump in my throat means that I will burst out laughing or crying! 

You and your siblings....such a funny thing love does to a Mama. Very much indescribable. Very much delightful. I am so in love.  

With love,
Mama Hauck

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

The 2015 Soccer Season is Here!

Soccer season, yay! 

We've been having practices every Tuesday and Thursday for 3 weeks now. Practices have been awesome! You can really see the growth of the kids just in the past few weeks. Our Coach is amazing. So nice and sweet. Anthony really digs her.

This year, Anthony is in the U1o division. There are only two U10 teams this year, so every single one of their six games will be played against each other. I wish we had more kids sign up to form more teams, but hey, you gotta work with what you got. 

Games are every Saturday at 9. Anthony and his team, The Purple Jaguars, have two games under their belts now. They came up short, 1-3 their first game, but tied 4-4 this past one. You can see the determination on their sweet little faces. Really pushing it and giving the game their all. Last Saturday's game was also soccer picture day and the day Anthony was assigned to bring a snack. It was also a Farmers Market day for us! So it was a very busy, busy day of jumping between soccer and the Market. We made it work though, wouldn't miss a game! 

It's so fun watching them and cheering the kids on! I have to admit, it gets pretty intense on the side lines! Haha, I'm actually not sure what's more fun...watching the kids play or watching how into the parents get, cheering the kids on and hearing all the "Great kicks!" and "That 'a boys!" 

So awesome.

Go Purple Jaguars!


Game 1

Game 2

Keep up the great work, kiddos!! 

With love,
Mama Hauck

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Surviving September

Life right now feels too busy. I know for some, busy is good. Like my husband for instance, he thrives on being busy at work. He says his productivity skyrockets when he's busy and under a lot of pressure. Me, on the other hand, I flounder around feeling like I'm drowning, get chronic headaches,  and sleep horribly.

School, time spent on homework that hopefully doesn't turn into battles, dinner planning and cooking, Country Bumpkin orders, Dr. appointments, grocery shopping, soccer practice, keeping up on housework, endless hours of Cub Scout e-mails and projects and planning and Den Meetings, my blog, birthday parties, painting, dentist appointments, garage sale, photo shoot and working on photos, Farmers Market, soccer games, PTO carnival booth planning, and driving to all these places....driving, driving, driving.....always with at least 1 of my 3 kiddos in tow.

The World just keeps on spinning and I feel as if I'm going to be flung from it as it spins faster and faster and faster. It's crisp blue oceans and earth toned land masses spinning until it's just a blur. Everyone and everything wants a piece of me and I feel like I can't keep up. I can't be everything to everyone. Or be everywhere all the time. Or do everything that I, and others, want. To think I can is a mighty fine thought. To want to is a mighty fine desire. To actually do it is a mighty ridiculous request. Unless I missed something, there is no cape upon my shoulders.

I need more hours in the day. 

Or I need to prioritize better. 

Or I need to start saying "no."  


But I already have told people no for custom orders. I've had to say no to photo shoots. I've had to skip getting Anthony to soccer practice. I've had to miss out on girl's night. I've had to miss Cub Scout Round-table meetings, I've had to cancel a few Farmers Market weekends. I had to feed the kids noodles and sauce 3 days in a row.

It's not fun and it doesn't make me feel great to disappoint people.

Every day I find myself saying, "If I can just get through this week, then..." "If I can just get through September, then..." Well that's a pretty shitty way to think and live though, isn't it? That's more like surviving.

Surviving, not living. 

I'm totally surviving September. 

And while I'm surviving September, I need to not forget to take time to smell the flowers.

 

Or watch the beauty of a sunset.


Or  hear the happy giggles from my little ones. 

 

Doing so won't make the World stop spinning so fast, but it will give my soul the boost I need to carry on.

With love,
Mama Hauck

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Payton NB Photo Shoot

Holy smokes you guys, Little Payton is just darling! Born on September 1st, I was so lucky to be asked to take her photos on the 9th by her proud Mom and Dad.

This was only my 2nd newborn shoot, so I was super nervous, but I prepared myself as best I could and I went in there and did my best! I didn't get all the newborn "poses" I was hoping to get, but sometimes that happens. You know, you can't make a newborn do something they just don't want to do! ;) And over time I've learned that you have to know when to say when and offer to try again a different time. This is true for any type of shoot! After two hours, Payton's parents and I were in agreement that it was time to stop and go for round two in a few days to finish getting the other shots we wanted. After working on the photos I did get, however, everyone was happy with the outcome and it was decided that round two would not be necessary...though I would have gladly gone back if wanted! Hey, I'm no professional and I'm pretty dang humble too, just learning and trying my best as I go along. 

Darling Payton and her sweet big sister Zoey are two very lucky little gals.









With love,
Mama Hauck