I came to the realization a few weeks back that I needed to take a step back, take a deep breath, and do a little soul searching.
I find myself needing to do this when in one or more aspects of my life, I feel the storm clouds brewing and slowly closing in on me, affecting my mood and overall happiness.
A few years back I did a post about all the changes I wanted to make in my life, called Working On It. I feel as if recently I need to remind myself of one of the most important changes I wanted to make.....
6. Quite possibly the biggest change I'd like to see is with my relationships. I need to choose who is worth my time and energy, who is not, and then cut my losses. Fair weather friends have no place in my life. I don't like being used or called upon only when it is convenient for the other person. I give all my love and go out of my way for those I care about and would like to receive that in return. Too many times I give and give and give of myself to someone, only to be dropped and ignored and left feeling like a fool when I am no longer convenient for them or the next best thing comes along. That's incredibly hurtful. I deserve more. I want someone to be my friend for the sole purpose of loving me and wanting the joy of my friendship. I know I deserve that.
After a period of stormy weather, I have seen the sunshine again and am feeling the sweet relief of a mending heart, a more confident self, and an enlightened mood.
Onward I march! Always forward. Striving to better myself, my life, and the life of my loved ones.
With love,
Mama Hauck