Sometimes though, it pains my heart so much I can't bare it and the tears flow. There is a heaviness in my chest that at times feels so crushing and the lump in my throat a suffocating rock.
I swear it is the most bittersweet thing in the world to watch your babies grow. How do you balance the love, joy, and chaos of the present, the hope and excitement for the future, and the sadness over the time that's gone by far too quickly?
Timothy will be a year old in a little over a month. I can not even begin to wrap my head around the fact that it has almost been a year since this.....
How has it almost been a year? It seems impossible. He's growing too fast. Changing too fast. Thinking of not having a baby in the house is choking me up.
I always have such a hard time around the time leading up to my children's birthdays. The gravity of them growing up and no longer being as I remembered them just gets me.